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marcus and i finally make out!
i'm dazed. where do i begin? marcus and i made out tonight. at 6:30 pm i was at Bible study, and just hours later, at 2:30 am, i was heavily making out with him. at about half past twelve he started instant messaging me, and asked, "Wanna make out?", plain and simple. whether he was kidding or not, i do not know. i didn't feel like kidding around this particular night, and since my roommate/Bible study inviter was at a sleepover, i decided now would be prime. so i met him at the entrance to my dorm, got him in as my guest, and we rode the very crowded elevator. i had showered before, and brushed my teeth. i wore pajama pants and a spaghetti strap shirt, but i rid myself of the shirt fairly quickly. when we arrived at my room, he asked if i would prefer the lights to be off. i said yes. i'm really glad that at first, the lights were cut. i feel that made me more adventurous. he unzipped the fleece hoodie that i had worn to go fetch him, and we started kissing while standing. those first few moments were some of the best that night; i think i enjoyed them most. so we laid down, and after some more kissing and touching, i decided to take off my shirt, which i didn't think i would do tonight. he was happy about that, and so was i. :) that was my first first: being shirtless with a guy. he kept asking me what he could do to make it better for me, and i wasn't making any clear suggestions one way or another, just staying silent. "what do you do when we're chatting about these things?" he asked. i was hesitant to say so out loud, and so i waited quite a while before saying, "squeezing." of course, he wanted to know where, and i told him he knew where. "No, i don't. show me." he replied, knowing exactly what i was talking about. his hands fell below, and he started to finger me through my panties, and then slid them back. second first of the evening: being fingered. he asked if i was okay with it, and i waited a little while before giving him the okay. i let him know though that i had never done this before, and he said he knew. i knew he had done this previously, but i asked him anyway: "have you done this before?" and, like a cocky young thing, he told me, "Yes, I know exactly what I'm doing." that fact made me want to roll my eyes, and shudder just a bit. i don't know what it is about saying naughty things...sometimes they come across as silly, sometimes hot, and sometimes both. he asked me if i was turned on, and i told him i wasn't, not really. i mean, i was wet, but turned on? i don't know. when he first unzipped my jacket--i was turned on then, i believe. it was a rush at that point, our tongues were finally intertwined. and he was so gentle. he didn't rush, he took time to enjoy it. i was so happy about that. he says things sometimes that aren't so gentle, but the way he kissed me...wow, it was so patient. i really enjoyed it. i like just savoring his tongue. it's not sweet really, just warm. i'm thinking maybe kissing is mostly appealing because it brings warmth. the kissing isn't really what felt the best, it was the touching. he asked if i regretted meeting to do this, and i told him, "no. not now, anyway." i think that disappointed him, and now i wish i had not said it. but hey, i was being honest. he also asked if i was glad we did this, and i said yes. i was, i was really happy. the whole thing was so relaxing...so much so that he asked, "you're not falling asleep on me, are you?" so i told him no, i didn't think so. i hope i wasn't! then again, i hadn't slept much at all. i am fairly sure he wanted me to touch him, down there. he sort of guided my hand there a couple of times, but i never did it. i think i might want to next time. i felt like two firsts in one night were plenty, and i was scared. i don't know, i just...didn't want to touch him there, not yet. he was warm and wet though, i felt a little bit through his clothes! when he left, he said something briefly about having to tuck it in. :) well, there you go, there's another first: first time to graze a guy's manhood on purpose! a while after he was fingering me, i wanted him to stop, and let him know. "but i want to make you come," he said so innocently. that was sweet, but i didn't want to go that far, and he stopped when i asked it of him. it was strange to have fingers down there, any at all. he was fairly vigorous, which i'm not sure i liked. it was as if he hit a good spot every once in a while, but not all the time. and he didn't penetrate, because i asked him not to. heck I don't even penetrate myself! usually i don't touch myself when i masturbate, i just...uh...clench. :D and he said i was "light," which is about the sweetest thing he could have said. he asked if i wanted to do this again on tuesday, and i said yes. YAY! I'm excited about next time. i've been thinking about what i want to do next... and, for your laughing pleasure, i will give you an excerpt of a chat that i had with fellow blogger amazinfuckup: me: i uh...made out with mr. negative her: oh man her: hahahahah me: and it was good her: ;DDDDD me: yeah! me: marcus is his real name, that's what i call him in the blog me: whoah me: so yeah her: haha her: it happens me: ha, i suppose it does me: but we're going to do it again on tuesday her: man her: you plan this shit? her: haha me: uh...yeah me: online me: over aim her: i am just like HAY her: YOUR TONGUE IS IN MY MOUTH? COOL me: that's more natural, i think and here's the chat log that led up to the make out session (it started innocently enough, i was just talking about CAMERAS!): marcus: *poke poke* me: herro me: *lick* me: what's up marcus: *shivver* me: haha me: i'm looking at fisheye cameras me: and holgas me: there are so many weird types of cameras i've never heard of me: lomography is teh awesome! marcus: Wanna make out? me: are you being serious or not... marcus: Either way me: tommorow? marcus: Now? me: i'm exhausted and gross marcus: I'm gross anyway me: are you working tommorow or something? marcus: Yes, among other things me: i had zero hours of sleep the night before last, i truly am exhausted :-( marcus: I'm working from 6-noon, drum corps from 1 to whenever I leave, and then I'm going to buy a Wii me: a wii, what are those? we were talking about them today in my communication class me: is it a gaming platform? marcus: New Nintendo Console marcus: Launches tomarrow me: how much do they go for? me: i heard there are people camping out marcus: 250 marcus: No me: yeesh marcus: Not yet marcus: Can I at least come over and cradle your breasts? me: have you been drinking at all tonight? marcus: Nope marcus: I have to be at work at 6, that would be dumb of me me: 6 am? me: surely not 6 am, right? marcus: Then again I'm dealing with Special Olympics, so I may start drinking anyway... marcus: Yes marcus: 6 Am- Noon me: special olympics? marcus: Yes marcus: Tard Bowling :-) me: hey marcus: Kidding! me: yeah, i know me: they bowl at 6am? me: WHO BOWLS at 6 am?! marcus: Its special Olympics! me: so? marcus: I dunno, they're Retarded... me: i guess so... marcus: So how bout it me: how about a week from today? marcus: Won't be in town till late me: oh i forgot me: thanksgiving me: i will be in houston a week from today marcus: Yup me: well, my roommate is leaving on tuesday, and i'm leaving on wednesday me: but i don't know what time she's leaving me: but tuesday could work marcus: Ooh, I could get you shirtless at that rate me: haha...what? me: =-O me: :-D me: what do you mean? marcus: Aw, you would me: psh marcus: :-) me: i would what? me: okay i am not getting that joke. oh welllll marcus: I'm just saying you'd get shirtless wouldn't you? me: probably not the first time me: but i think i might be okay with your fingers wandering up my shirt... marcus: *probably*there might be a chince then me: a small one me: ! me: so are you working tuesday? marcus: Yes, I get off at 12 me: noon or midnight marcus: Midnight me: do you have class or work the next day marcus: Class in the morning from 10-12 marcus: Then I'm leaving for parents me: that sounds a bit packed marcus: You could get a bit packed... marcus: Giggity me: ugh me: that's creepy me: and no, i won't marcus: I said could, I won't tho me: no, you said i could marcus: Exactly, could, not gonna, or should me: okay: we won't. i'll just be totally clear (and you already know this) --i'm not ready for sex, and probably won't be for quite a while me: then we're on the same wavelength me: this is good marcus: Which is why ill be happy to fondle your funbags me: okay :-D me: hehe marcus: And you can play around with my whatever you want to call it me: haha, really? me: i don't know if i'll want to or not marcus: Aww me: aww? me: i've never been there me: Laff me: anyways... marcus: What will you be wearing? marcus: Somthing light, hopefully me: i hadn't thought of that yet me: i have this white cotton halter dress thing, maybe that marcus: Spaghetti straps and sleep pants :-) me: oh...you don't realize that the halter dress is built in such a way that i can't wear a bra with it me: :D marcus: Zing! me: Indeed. marcus: What if one slips out while I'm playing with it? me: uh oh me: what if? marcus: And my mouth slipps on it? me: oops... marcus: That'd be terrible! me: Oh, i KNOW! marcus: ... Terribly awsome... marcus: And if my finger slip below your waiste? me: i don't know... me: what then? marcus: Who knows me: i just got cut off me: last i saw was "who knows" marcus: Question is if you'd let me do those things marcus: Eh? me: i think my chest is fair game--i'm okay with you going there. as far as underneath my skirt, i don't know yet. maybe i'll just place your hands there if i feel the urge to me: sound good? marcus: Okie dokie marcus: Sounds real good me: hehe marcus: Anywhere on me is fair game me: okay me: and don't think i'm not into it if i'm not comfortable going everywhere marcus: Okie me: the truth is, i've never been into it ever...so yeah. there you have it marcus: well me: we'll see what happens i guess me: well? marcus: Yes marcus: We will me: cool marcus: Why haven't you been into it? me: i don't know, i just get really nervous me: i try not to act nervous, but i think i'm locking up or something marcus: are you nervous around me? me: not really, but even you said i was tense the other night me: and i feel like we know each other pretty well by now marcus: Yeah, I think we do me: (still, that crying girl walking by didn't help matters at all...) me: that was disturbing marcus: I was just thinking about that, I really think that was far too staged to be real me: but...i'm glad i heard it. me: it made rape more real or something marcus: It sounded scripted me: you think it was staged? marcus: I think so me: as in one of those improv groups that goes out doing crazy stuff? me: she sounded fairly convincing me: i guess there's no real way to know marcus: Kinda like those Truth commercials you see on tv me: hm me: but without cameras marcus: Yes marcus: The idea is to make people feel it really happened, which apparently it did me: i don't know me: it did...to her, do you think? marcus: I really don't know me: i think if i was a rape victim, i wouldn't really want to be that dramatic about it marcus: Yes, that's what I'm thinking me: not in front of the world, and with my words scripted me: hm me: well anyways me: i'm glad i heard it, scripted or not marcus: I promise I'm not going to rape you marcus: I may make you cum marcus: But not rape me: can people have orgasms just making out? marcus: No marcus: I don't think anyway me: then how would you give me an orgasm? marcus: If my fingers slipped below me: ah, okay me: what will you wear? marcus: I could bring a change of clothes marcus: Maybe a tshirt and pajama pants me: hehe me: you seem to like pjs marcus: They're light and comfey marcus: ... No bra... marcus: Sounds nice me: true marcus: Especially if your nipples get as hard as I hope they do me: hehe me: what do you mean by cradling? me: is that with hand or face? marcus: Either marcus: I'd probably like to stick my face between them and squish them against me me: hehe marcus: And probably shake my face back and forth me: hahaha! marcus: See, that'd be fun for both of us! me: yeah, i think so me: i know i would be laughing if you did something like that marcus: See, breaking the ice me: that will be key, i feel me: hm me: sunday evening? marcus: Hmmmm marcus: Perhaps marcus: Where will the roomate be? me: she might very well be here marcus: She can come too:-) me: and now would be prime (except that i'm gross) because she's at a sleepover me: hahaaaaaaa me: she is very conservative me: then again, i can be too marcus: Why don't you take a shower and I'll be right over? me: when it comes to these things me: i thought about that, but i don't even know if they let guests in this late marcus: Guest hours end at 2:30 me: how do you know that? me: i don't even know that marcus: Jason lives the same dorm you do me: really? me: ah marcus: Yeah me: today is not a skinny day! marcus: No day is a skinny day for me me: i figured you would say something like that marcus: lolz me: well me: if i got you in the door at say 2:15, do you know if they would try to come kick you out 15 mins. later? marcus: They wouldnt me: how about that plan? marcus: Okie doke me: it would give me a little time to shower, etc. marcus: Yes me: wow, this is actually happening, huh? marcus: Sure me: just know that i don't really know what i'm doing and i'll be nervous. and you know the boundaries. marcus: Yes me: and that i am usually not such a slob me: hehe marcus: I'm always a slob so its all good me: haha me: well me: 2:15 where we met before? marcus: Yes me: okay marcus: Yay! me: yay! marcus: I'm excited marcus: How about you? me: yeah me: just got out of the shower marcus: I'm gonna have to park in the garage methinks me: ugh me: i think you have to pay for that, right? marcus: Yeah, but its no biggie marcus: K, I'm parked me: okay me: i may need to meet you at 2:20 or so marcus: I'm going around to that entrance we met, be there in a few moments marcus: I'm almost there, tho marcus: I'm here marcus: You coming? me: yes
- saturday, Nov. 18, 2006
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