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parting is not such sweet sorrow (not today, anyway)

i have two finals tommorow (eek!) and one the next day. i really ought to be studying right now, but i'm not.

i'm seriously considering taking a TEFL course online this summer and getting certified. i would pay for it, of course--i'm not sure mom would be too pleased with me doing it. i'd like to, though. i have found a wealth of sites that offer TEFL online, and they're all different. it seems that every one of them is certified by someone else, and i don't know which company is authentic! grrr...looks like i have a lot of homework to do to find what option is best for me.

i'm trying to end this year well. i want so much to be happy when i leave this place that it makes me crazy. i think i'm forcing myself to smile right now. i just want to leave and be on good terms with everyone who i know, and sometimes i wonder if that's even possible. i mean, i get along with the people i know, but they always seem to dissapoint me, and i imagine i dissapoint them. i know, that sounds ridiculous. i guess i'm just used to hanging out with a different crowd--a church crowd, a crowd that doesn't drink or smoke, a crowd of virgins. now i hang out with all genres of people, which is good and strange at the same time. i feel eager to get back with my "own kind", so to speak. i'm tired of feeling like the only person who doesn't have any experience in smoking, drinking, or sex. i guess i'm just a goody goody two shoes. oh, well! if that's me, so be it.

good grief, whoever reads this will think i am obsessed with myself because of the number of times i say "i" in this journal. i this, i that, i blah blah blah....

day after tommorow dad gets here, and the next day we move out. i can hardly believe it. i'm feeling a little less nostalgic now than i have been the past few days, and a little bit more eager to get out of this place. it's time to go, and i'm ready. i am that timid little girl tugging on her daddy's sleeve, pleading to leave. wow, that last sentence sounded ridiculous.

again, i surely haven't hated san antonio, indeed it's quite the opposite. it's just time to go. all things must come to an end, and i am plenty ready for this end to come.

i must leave this place. i am a nomad, and there are no more buffalo here to eat.

i am determined to not feel lonely. joey and elyse are next to me making out right now. so here i sit on my bed next to them, uncomfortable as usual.

Your #1 Match: INFP

The Idealist You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world. Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships. It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close. But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop. You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.

Your #2 Match: INFJ

The Protector You live your life with integrity, originality, vision, and creativity. Independent and stubborn, you rarely stray from your vision - no matter what it is. You are an excellent listener, with almost infinite patience. You have complex, deep feelings, and you take great care to express them. You would make a great photographer, alternative medicine guru, or teacher.

Your #3 Match: ENFP

The Inspirer You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends. You are also unconventional, irreverant, and unimpressed by authority and rules. Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives. You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're qutie the storyteller! You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist.

Your #4 Match: ENFJ

The Giver You strive to maintain harmony in relationships, and usually succeed. Articulate and enthusiastic, you are good at making personal connections. Sometimes you idealize relationships too much - and end up being let down. You find the most energy and comfort in social situations ... where you shine. You would make a good writer, human resources director, or psychologist.

Your #5 Match: INTP

The Thinker You are analytical and logical - and on a quest to learn everything you can. Smart and complex, you always love a new intellectual challenge. Your biggest pet peeve is people who slow you down with trivial chit chat. A quiet maverick, you tend to ignore rules and authority whenever you feel like it. You would make an excellent mathematician, programmer, or professor.
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