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i need to go talk to my advisor tommorow--there's no option, i've procrastinated as usual and i WILL talk with him tommorow. i also will be at two astronomy study sessions, and of course french conversation.

listening to: audiocrush 10

...i have discovered i am turned on by phone sex.
i haven't done it, but listening to audiocrush? good grief. audiocrush is a radio show (you can hear it as a podcast or download it) where a bunch of guys talk about random stuff while drinking, and on this 10th episode, they as preparation pretended to be a 25-year-old female looking for "casual encounters" on a personals thing called Craig's List. huh. they left "her" cell phone number, and the messages came pouring in. in "her" message "she" said she wanted the callers to leave a sexy message. so throughout this particular show, amongst the banter and indie songs, the guys made fun of these dudes' responses. they were all astoundingly lame and gross, but there was one in particular that was...admittedly sexy. to this vagina, anyways! no one can know little janeane liked this.

and no, i am not going to start having phone sex. that's just plain weird, it creeps me out. only if i had a boyfriend who i trusted an incredible amount, and who wanted to would i ever have genuine phone sex. what i heard was not "genuine" because it was just a recording. i enjoyed this guy's little fantasy, but to actually talk that way with a guy over the phone would completely freak me out. so, this is no habit.


i can't believe i'm even writing this. it's insignificant and not something i particularly want to remember. maybe i'm becoming too honest with myself. is there such thing? okay, i'm officially changing the subject now.


i love music. i don't know that there's any greater way for a human to express themself, except perhaps through writing or prayer. i'm so glad God made music. where would we be without it? lost indeed, i believe.

music is immeasurably better than any phone sex could ever be, why listen to crap?

"Music is her religion." -Almost Famous


if anybody actually ever reads this, i really am a nice girl. i'm normally not like this. i guess i'm just horny tonight, don't think any differently about me. but then how could you? oh, well. i don't know anyone who reads this, so if you do think i'm some weirdo i won't know and therefore won't care.


8:17 pm - i just took a quiz for my biology class, it gives me 1 extra point on my final grade. it's a personality quiz, and the results were in some ways shockingly true:
1. You appear to be a cheerful, well-balanced person. You may have some alternation of happy and unhappy moods, but they are not extreme now. You have few problems with your health. You are sociable and mix well with others. You are adaptable to social situations. You tend to be adventurous. Your interests are wide. You are fairly self-confident and usually think clearly.
2. Some of your aspirations tend to be pretty unrealistic. At times you are extroverted, affable, sociable, while at other times you are introverted, wary and reserved. You have found it unwise to be too frank in revealing yourself to others. You pride yourself on being an independent thinker and do not accept others opinions without satisfactory proof. You prefer a certain amount of change and variety, and become dissatisfied when hemmed in by restrictions and limitations. At times you have serious doubts as to whether you have made the right decision or done the right thing. Although you appear disciplined and controlled on the outside, you tend to be worrisome and insecure on the inside.
3. Your sexual adjustment has presented some problems for you. While you have some personality weaknesses, you are generally able to compensate for them. You have a great deal of unused capacity which you have not turned to your advantage. You have a tendency to be critical of yourself. You have a strong need for other people to like you and for them to admire you.
interesting. "Your sexual adjustment has presented some problems for you", "Some of your aspirations tend to be pretty unrealistic", "You have found it unwise to be too frank in revealing yourself to others", and especially "At times you have serious doubts as to whether you have made the right decision or done the right thing" are all hitting the nail on the head. what an accurate quiz.


9:18 pm oh yeah, i forgot to add: i saw that adam david guy in jamba juice today. i don't know if he recognized me. the beatles' "Come Together" was playing on the radio, and he was singing along. now i have that song in my head, which is not a bad thing, really. i love the beatles, and i like adam david. of course, i don't know him, but i like him. you can like a person you don't know, right? ah, well. i do it all the time, so sue me.


i found a magnificent picture of the earth at night on google. what floored me was that when i see a picture of the earth, i'm usually looking at a map, with lines dissecting the countries and such. that no lines exist in this picture means to me that countries probably shouldn't exist, either. i believe this is the picture that God sees, a picture of humanity rather than its divisions. we're not so different from each other as we think.

i've just invented a word, "hilarical". yes, it's a combination of "hilarious" and "hysterical". how do you like it?

2:04 a.m. - 2005-11-03


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