backyard crowing
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apathy and flat tires
Suicidal today, a bit.
Eating cherries, frozen. Beer! Ramen. Ezekiel bread!
I went to an Authentic Relating Games this week. It was at a tea house.
There was a guy there, Daniel. He is so unbelievably attractive. I'm not kidding. Jesus.
Salt and pepper hair, but smooth skin -- like a 30 year old. Brown eyes. Tall and thin. So sexy.
I met him once before, in December. He was my partner in one of the games.
I had only attended the Games one time -- and then returned this week. And he was there.
Oh, well.
I need to move away. Stat.
I need to get up and do something.
I've been fucking catatonic for days now. I feel no motivation whatsoever.
My tire is flat. It has been flat for 3 days and I've done nothing.
I think the tire is more a metaphor for the rest of my life. I'm doing nothing, and I just don't care.
Because in a sense, I feel that no one cares about anything. Not really. They just say they do.
4:04 pm - Tuesday, Apr. 18, 2017
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