backyard crowing
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Goodbye to the Granddest Dad
My maternal grandfather died Thursday before last, the 21st.
I was pretty stricken at first, but I'm feeling better now. The memorial service will be in three weeks.
I'm going home, to Houston, for the first time since I moved to California. R will be there. It will be solemn, though.
I think I won't really be cured of my crazy until R moves here, or I move there. That's why I'm so lonely, so sad sometimes, and making poor decisions. He brings out the best in me. Without him, I am a lesser version of myself.
He doesn't bring out the hardcore competitive ambitious side, however. Iago can do that. But that side isn't fully me...it's just a part of me.
I was too ambitious for Austin, and although I believe I CAN be ambitious enough for LA, I wonder if it will rob me of a soul.
Iago? I don't think he has a soul. He has a beating heart, and narcissism.
9:21 pm - Friday, Mar. 01, 2019
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